It didn't look like there was much in my closet, but in the corner were a couple of boxes that needed my attention. It took all day! It was a wearisome task ripping up old statements, pictures, calendars, cards and notes. I didn't think I had anything, but apparently I was wrong! There were mementos everywhere of an old life that no longer exists. I put the clothing, books and accessories into bags for charity and everything else went in the trash.
When it was all done, I sat on the couch and had a good cry! I'm not sure why I was crying. There didn't seem to be any emotional attachment to the stuff I got rid of, yet the whole process was emotionally draining.
"Lord, why am I crying?"
I asked.
"Because you're truly closing
the door to your past!"
He responded.
I wonder why our past has such a grip on us? Good, bad or indifferent, it seems to want to linger in our lives as long as it can. I dealt with my issues long before The Red Shoe Project ever began -- or at least I thought I had. Whatever tidbits that remained got dealt their final blow earlier this year at SOZO. Now it's just time to sweep up any remaining residue, leftovers, remains and reminders.
There are 20 days left of this Red Shoe Project and there's still a few more closets, drawers, buckets and bins to go through. But I'm feeling good about the whole thing! I'm on track to finish my house cleaning right on schedule.
As I was talking with the Lord earlier today, He showed me something. It was a vision of a trapeze. I saw myself standing on a platform, high above the arena looking at what was before me. There was "The Catcher" swinging back and forth, preparing for the big event. I'm preparing for that big event too!
When the New
Year arrives,
I will leap into all
that God has for me!
In RED shoes,
Gail
