Optimistically speaking, financial challenges have made things a little uncomfortable. I am continuing to worship the Lord and waiting on Him for direction. Quite frankly, I'm a little confused. I've done all He has asked of me, on every count. The ball is in His court now and I am patiently waiting His return.
What I was anticipating, has not happened. Why is that? I don't know. Divine Timing perhaps? Many have questioned my ways, and the multitude of voices in my head have thought it fit to join in their choir of discouragement. Being the recipient of their verbal downloads, one after the other, has been incredibly wearisome. Others have backed away. They don't know what to think. They are hoping for my sake, I have heard from God. They would like that. They tell me their prayers are with me -- I'm thankful for that.
Today, I am doing my best to worship the Lord and believe that He will still come through. Many have already offered up their "I told you so! Go out and get a job!" It's not that I haven't considered that, but God has been so adamant on the matter -- I hate to go there so quickly. So quickly? Many thought I should have done that months ago... some thought I should have done that January 1st. This RED Shoe Project, though interesting, is not big enough, in their eyes, to shelf one's life for a year.
My foot has been pain free all day. It is no longer in the shape of a big baseball. Instead the swelling has spread and my injured foot and ankle is almost double the size of the other. To be honest, there's part of me that just wants to sit down and cry. I feel alone. But there's no time for any of that. I need to hold together until tomorrow. I need to get my daughter off and on her way. Besides... perhaps things will change between now and then. "One more day!"
A couple "rubies" have texted me wonderful words of prayer and encouragement. Their voices are refreshing streams of water to my soul. THANK YOU, my friends. Just knowing you're on my side and that you're praying is strengthening!
It's hot in the house and Pauly is not used to that. His panting is relentless. I have moved my bedding to the living room floor in hope that he will find comfort lying on the cool tile, and perhaps we will get a little sleep. It's not quite how I pictured our last night. Even so, he has turned down his tile bed, planted himself beside me on the comforter, and is insistent that he cuddle close. I guess that's how he pictured our last night together. He's true to the end! LOL. I hope I am as faithful to God -- True to the end...
in RED shoes,
Gail
Day 308
My daughter, Jordan, her friend Patty and Pauly are officially "on the road" on this 308th Day of The RED Shoe Project! God grant them traveling mercies! I was concerned that Pauly wasn't going to be able to get into the cab of the truck, but he surprised us all, by jumping up with excitement. All he needed was a little boost! He sees the whole thing as one big adventure. I am reminding myself to do the same as I put on my RED flip flops for the day!
I have headed out to Starbucks where I am charging my phone and laptop, and getting caught up with my facebook postings. Please stay with me. I am committed to this RED Shoe Project and will keep writing each day, doing my best to post on time. Know that your prayers are greatly appreciated!
Today a dear sister read a recent posting of mine and shared her morning devotional with me. The scripture reference was Acts 12:5...
"Peter therefore was kept in prison:
but prayer was made without ceasing
of the church unto God for him"
The author talked about God baptizing people with Holy Audacity and Divine Confidence!
"Audacity" is the willingness to take bold risks.
A. B. Simpson said,
" He is not wanting great men,
but He is wanting men who will
dare to prove the greatness of their God!"
What an awesome word and how apropos! It has brought excitement to my soul! I am standing on this for today for it is in alignment with what God has spoken to me. THANK YOU dear sister for your obedience in sharing that word of Divine Encouragement! May God reward you for it!
Meanwhile, another dear sister has offered to ice my foot for me and share a cup of tea. I am off to pay her a visit now...
in my RED flip flops,
Gail
