The older, wealthy, wise mentor represents God. This Divine Mentor wants nothing more than to pour into the younger woman's life that she might succeed. With that in mind, she states that she will provide the resources needed for them to meet, so that she can train her personally.
Meanwhile, the younger woman is having trust issues with God. She hears the woman say she'll provide, but doesn't understand how that all comes together. Operating in fear, she focusses her energy and attention on providing the money for the meeting herself.
As long as she insists on paying, the mentor will let her. The mentor knows that the woman must learn how to trust her before they can move on to anything else.
So, you know that the younger woman is me... right? I've been struggling with this "God will provide" thing for a while now. Not all of it... just part of it. I'm not even sure what part of it. I just know that something isn't quite working. So I made it a matter of desperate prayer.
"God! What am I missing?
Why am I not getting this?
Help me, please!"
Ok... so it's not like I'm a novice at all this. I know that God provides. I know that His name is Jehovah Jireh, My Provider. But what I know in my mind, is not manifesting in my life. What's with that? I need a BREAKTHROUGH! and that's what I began praying for.
A Breakthrough is a sudden dramatic and
important discovery or development
that results in a significant and dramatic
overcoming of a perceived obstacle
allowing completion of a project.
Today... Day 70 of The Red Shoe Project, I had a major breakthrough in this area, and yes, I was wearing my RED shoes. Last week, a good friend and spiritual mentor had passed along a set of teaching CDs she wanted me to listen to. She called me this morning and asked if I had listened to the first CD yet. She stressed that God had specifically told her to tell me that I needed to listen to that CD now... like today, because it had answers for me. Ok... I picked it up and popped it into my car CD player as I drove to St. Pete.
All I can say is that I left Sarasota with one mindset, and arrived in St. Pete with another. As I pulled into the parking lot of where I was going, the message came to an end. I shut off the car and decided to pray before getting out. A transformation took place. I will never be the same. I know that you may be wondering... What was it? And when I can verbalize in a way that makes sense, I will share it. But for now, know this:
God hears those desperate prayers.
When it seems like He's not there,
He's usually working on our behalf.
The Secret is... - pressing in,
- holding on,
- waiting with anticipation,
- wanting more,
- determination and tenacity,
- not giving up on God.
As I take off my RED shoes, I think "What a day!"
Thank you for the breakthrough, Lord.
Gail
