It's a tug-of-war of sorts.
It's so subtle. I wake up every morning realizing that there's only four or five weeks left before this Red Shoe Project is over. Time is running out. The clock is ticking. With all the stripping away of self, here I am -- finally -- closer than ever before to the heart of God.
In one ear I hear... "I can't wait to spend time with the Lord today. I wonder what we'll do? I wonder what He'll say? Yes! It's going to be an awesome time in His presence! "
In the other ear I hear... "What are you going to do today? Aren't you bored yet? Maybe you should catch a movie? Perhaps someone will want to go out and do something. Stop your lingering and find something productive to do! Come on -- Let's get out of here!"
I'm laughing to myself as I write this, because now, it all seems so blatant. The good news is that I am not giving my attention to that demon spirit and his antics. I'm very much aware of the fact that...
NOW is the time!- to sit in His presence,
- to embrace His love,
- to listen to His whispers,
- to enjoy His company,
- to be attentive to His call,
- to take note of what He's saying,
- to put my ear to his chest and listen to His heartbeat.
I'm not going anywhere. I want it all! And it's right here in front of me!
"My heart says of you, 'Seek his face!"
Your face, LORD, I will seek."
Psalm 27:8
In the prayer chamber, in Red shoes,
Gail
