Yesterday, my time in the prayer closet was mobil. I already told you what God had revealed to me during my prayer walk... but there was more. You probably remember that in regards to the financial provision I was seeking, God said, "It's taken care of!"
In case you haven't figured it out yet, I'm not so good when it comes to trusting God for my finances. Oh... I've gotten better -- much better! -- but the fact is, I'm so darn self-sufficient, it's disgusting!
Self-sufficient means...
Needing no outside help in satisfying one's own basic needs.
- Self-supporting
- Self-reliant
- Self-sustaining
- Independent
SELF -- SELF -- SELF...
Just hand me a barf bag now. I think I'm about to throw up!
I was almost in tears when God told me "It's taken care of!"
"What's the matter? Why are you crying?" He asked
"Because I don't know what else to do?" I responded back.
"That's just it - You don't do anything - I've taken care of it!
Now you just wait for the Hand of God to move!"
We had a long talk. Yes we did. And when it was over I asked...
"If this is really you, Lord, what's the scripture?"
His response was immediate...
"Be still and know that I am God."
Psalm 46:10
I was brought up believing I could do anything as long as I was willing to work hard for it. I've got a strong work ethic. And there's nothing wrong with that. In most cases, it's to be admired! Unless of course, you find yourself in a situation in which God is asking you to trust Him completely.
So I'm waiting -- patiently -- believing I will see the Hand of God move. I do believe the fight is out of me. I hope so, because as long as I'm willing to keep trying to do it myself, God will let me. I'm tired of trying! For the longest time, even though my heart said, "Wait for God!" my mind said "What else can you do to make this happen?"
No more! It's over! I'm done!
This fighter is down for the count!
I know I'm going to look back on this and think...
"That was so easy!
Why didn't I just do that to begin with?"
Some things are not so easy! Unwinding... it takes time. 303 days to be exact!
In RED shoes,
Gail
