Day 30

On the 30th Day of  The Red Shoe Project I was found in my RED flip flops at one of the top beaches in the world - Siesta Key in sunny Sarasota, FL. Wonderful friends were paying me a visit from out of town, so it was a "must do!"  With that, my routine for the day got thrown off.  I found myself struggling to "let go" and "go with the flow".  You know I've been loving all this focused time I've had with the Lord in my Secret Place this month! Getting up and out of the house to do something different was a challenge. But then the Lord whispered to me...

"I noticed that sometimes you're not so good at 

GOING WITH THE FLOW!

Just enjoy this time with your friends.

Really?  Even though the Holy Spirit spoke this so gently, and offered it, not as a rebuke, but as a loving suggestion, I still felt bad in knowing that I wasn't quite getting it. Was I the one fish swimming in the opposite direction from all the others?

No.  But I knew He was right.  He was trying to move me out of the house today... to have a little fun,  and I was pushing against that... dragging my feet... holding back... hesitating... and showing a lack of enthusiasm.

I can tend to be a little Black and White at times. It's not good.  It's not bad.  It's just how I am.  The problem is that He's not like that.  Yup.  I can't tie God down... stuff Him into a box... or squeeze Him into a confined, overly structured program.  He's just not comfortable there.  He's much too BIG for my little ways.  But it's not for Him to be following my plan anyways.  

My good friend, Suzanne,  just recently reminded
me of one of my favorite scriptures:

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart.

Lean not on your own understanding.

In all your ways, acknowledge Him.

And He will direct your path."

Proverbs 3:5,6

Ahhh... He'll direct my path!

After the beach, my friends and I came back to the house for dinner.  Just for something fun to do, they asked if they could do a little furniture re-arranging.  By this time, I had loosened up a little and was doing much better with my "flow" issues, so I agreed. Within an hour they had totally transformed my living room and office. WOW! I couldn't believe it! It looks great!

I could have easily just left things as they were.  I was comfortable and used to it "the old way."  But I guess I opened myself up to something new...  and Woolah! Presto-Chango... Magnificent!  It didn't cost anything but a willingness to give it a try.

Why is it that Letting the Lord lead me, 

is so difficult at times?

Ahh... so this is a control issue?  Not going with the flow of things is because I want to be in control?  I hate to admit it, but this isn't the first time God has presented this lesson to me. Hmmmm.  Ok... so maybe I can get it right this time. Because I really don't want to be in control. I want so much to FOLLOW HIM.  I really do! I've lead myself for a long time and I usually don't like where I end up. My true heart's desire is to Go With The Flow of The Holy Spirit.  Besides... contrary to what many people may think... His way is so much more adventurous and fun than mine!

From now on...

I wonder if they make RED water shoes?   

Gail